most of us have really poor computer skills (those inside out d.i.d. system ) we do have a small group who are great at fixing the glitches we make .
D.I.D. stands for dissociative identity disorder ... once called mpd . the basic behind the haveind d.i.d. is there was too much highly intense abuse as a small child ... some how some kids do what is called splitting and the mind breaks and a second alter / personality is created . then over time more pressures more splits more personality come into exhistance ....
the term d.i.d. people use for non d.i.d. is singletons . most seem curios about what it's like to have other personalitys ... and we are curious abot what it's like not to have the others inside .
some integrate and merge the others into one or two ... others may decide not to , or like me can't ... and so close to being 50 .... don't want too . we have learned to cope creatively and are so used to the others and working in teams it's just normal for us ...
we do not hide the fact we have it and honestly most people who know have simply accepted it as yah she has d.i.d. but isn't strange weird or whaco ... just a bit diffrent at times ... (because there is a diffrent personality out)
most of the time we just are aware the others are there but don't need to think we need this one or that one to help with this job or task .... each just kinda shows up .... and a team then goes to do the what needing done .
we also have internal privacy . each has their own place to go to think , rest or simply nap ... inside we have created places over the years where we used visual imagery to make being inside more interesting ... with me / us all know the inside world is our own creation and never spills into the outside world . for us the outside world is exactly the same as for singletons ... no one hears things from the outside or sees things from the outside that is not real ... no hallutinatios . we are well able to keep the real world real and seperated from our inside world .
each personality is unique and has their own likes and dislikes .... some want to watch this show on tv others say no lets watch this .
they come in all ages little little kids to grownups they also have their own gender female and males . males are said to develop as protectors .... some kids stay little kids some kids are still kids but can think more like older ones do ....
over many years we have developed a pretty comfortable set of systems and have less crisis and mor fun ... the thing held most in common is artistic talents that we are working to start our own copy art poster bizz ... we are also physically disabled so being into art and writeing come in more handy then oh more physical things ... we can't climb a physical mountain ... but in our recovery we have climed many mountain size problems ....
more later
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I am thankful for your honest and courage. I also have DID and have suffered from people who ignorantly stigmatize mental illness. They probably do it from fear too. I love the name you chose and I just wanted you to know that you have been heard. Someone is reading and benefitting from your writing.
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