feeling fine ... really great day

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hello i am one of riskherds sheep ... i have been within vacationing for a moderately longish period of time ... the technicaly vacation was i had insider watch / guard duty . keeping things calm and fairly well under control ... so only been back a few days and wasn't aware we had goten a computer . we have our own personal geek squad giveing me a tour of computer junk ... think i'm really going to like this alot ...

so my introduction is ... my name is adam and i am one of the ones with higer authority ... when there are many within one mind there has to be a set structure and ones who through hard work and reliable behaviors on a consistant basis become boss peoples ... growing up and during the starts of the others there are some structures and those who are bossy ... but the structures are more because of the abuses and the bossy guys are basicall those who are stronger and be bullys ..

getting into therapy and getting through the denial brat stage and the holy hell this is really real state of shock are first stages we had ... then came the hardest thing to ever do , the it's time to tell this therapist person things that were drilled in as never tell never tell ,<><>to tell was the ultimate danger . now here we go once a week to tell .

thank god our first thetrapist was a qualified therapist who is also a pastor ... we worked with him 10 years and is probibly the biggest reason we could contine with therapy then once no more t we kept up our pretty high functioning level ...

god in his infinate wisdome stratgically placed people places and things within our real recovery . as a new concept time of adjusting who were simply the best person to help us at each time new people were introduced ... the fact our first therapis was also a pastor was really the most important thing . like i said big big part of our recovery .

too many people 23 years ago were so narrow minded we were confroned buy possibly well meaning christians as being demon possesed ... if i had been the pastor therapist would have seen this ... it gave us some peace of mind about this .... later as we made progress ....

some may wonder how anyone so abused could even entertain the belief god was real and is a god of love ... for each person with a history of such sevear abuse and find true faith ... have done so for their own reasons . as for me / us ///// we needed to belive in a power greater than abuse hate rage pain ... a god who understands and will be closely connected with love ...when we ponder upon our past we can say yes this is where god protected us or saved us .

god gave mankind free will thus some humans are abusive or any kind of wrong behaviors in the end it this we make our own choices we make our own decisions to pay for the consiquences of our actions ... and in our belif system d.i.d. is no valid excuse to act out commit crimes ect

need to go . glucose level feels too high or two low test time